I need a nap!

I have heard it said that what does not kill you makes you stronger. My new schedule is going to kill me. Exercising in the morning (or the middle of the night if you ask me!), working at the school and walking in the evening after Tom gets home weather permitting. I don’t have time to think of ways to get myself into trouble much less do it! Although this morning…

Tom, in what he must have thought was a magnanimous gesture, did not wake me until 7:00 to exercise. I told him to go jump in the lake! I was not getting up at 7 on a Saturday morning to ride that stupid bike and he couldn’t make me! I was so aggravated!
Alright I rode the stupid bike and it’s even worse after he took his slipper to me! That devil was laughing the whole time he was spanking me. He said it was nice to see he was getting his feisty wife back but that if I didn’t get my behind in there and ride that bike I wouldn’t be sitting anywhere else all day!

Much better than early morning exercise is school! School is just wonderful! I have been mostly in first grade. I spend a lot of my time reading with small groups of children. I think I am the oldest person some of them have ever seen. My goodness some of their grandparents are in their 40’s! They wanted to know why I have lines around my eyes. I told them that they were laugh lines, which sounds so much better than crow’s feet! That was a big hit. They all want laugh lines too. I told them just to stay happy and someday they could have them too! What a joy to be around these little ones!

Next week Tom is traveling for his job. I get to go with him!! I know a part of it is that he doesn’t trust me alone at the moment but I don’t care. We get to be together! The job will only take a few days and then he says we will take a few days just for us! That sounds like heaven to me. We won’t be gone more than a week because he had to get back to work and I guess I have to too!

Together

I am an adult. I can take the cold hard truth, harsh as it is, so why has the truth been kept from me this long? Who knew there was a 6:00 in the morning?!! And why on earth would anyone want to be up to see it? Tom, in his new insistence on a new healthier lifestyle, thinks we should be exercising together at this ungodly hour of the day. I had asked him to use the treadmill since it has been so cold. He bought me a recumbent bicycle a while back which I have done my best to ignore. Now he is insisting that I ride the silly thing in the morning while he is running. The man has lost it.

I’m doing it, I’m doing it! Right now I am doing everything Tom is asking. Tomorrow morning I go to work. I will be volunteering at the elementary school. I have done this in the past and I will be subbing if things work out. Right now I am exhausted just thinking about it, but I think that is the point. Things are good at our house right now, there is much to be done but we are working on everything together.

I'm really sorry

I believe our dear CeeCi best described the last few day at our house when she said ‘Shit, meet fan’. I am not worried about cursing, there is no way I can possible get myself in any more trouble than I am in now. Tom recently discovered some of my choice and activities that he is most unhappy about. Yes I knew he would not approve but I also didn’t think he would find out so “hiding things” was another transgression he is upset about. Tom expressed his displeasure in his usual way and I had no question about how serious he sees all this.

Yes I am being intentionally vague but I feel very embarrassed and foolish at this moment and just can’t bring myself to share just how foolish I really am. I had plenty of free time to blog and I didn’t use it for that purpose. I don’t know how much time I am going to have in the near future. I have feeling my days are going to be a bit more structured. Tom has not said to stay off the computer I can check my comments and emails, but I don’t think I am going to have much time.

You all know that I am safe and sound. Tom is on top of things once again and everything is going to be fine for us. He puts up with a lot and he still loves me. I could use a few pillows and any support you can throw my way. I also want to state right here if I had taken Tiggr’s advice I would not have gotten myself in trouble. Tig may bounce a bit erratically at times but her advice to others is usually right on the money! And although I am sitting sensitive at the moment I really feel better and more like myself than I have in weeks and weeks! Things are looking up in my life and I will be around as much as possible.

Cassie

Of course I follow my heart!

I will go along with the first line and the last line. That stuff in the middle I'm not so sure about. I have been hopelessly in love with the same man for a long, long time and I won't be changing my mind.

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?

Chaos without cause

I am hoping that this is going to be a better week than last. Tom is working terrible hours and I am not doing well at home alone. I have just been feeling really down and the internet has been acting up also. I nearly got my butt blistered when I had done nothing wrong at all! I heard that!! This time I really hadn’t done anything.

When the computer had not let me on for two days and Tom wasn’t being a bit of help I decided late one afternoon to go to my nieces and at least see what everyone was up to. We visited a while and then she went about her business while I looked in on everyone. I always lose track of time when I am on the computer so when she came back to look in on me she said (completely joking) “What on Earth are you looking at so long Cassie? Don’t clear that history, I want to know where in the world you’ve been.” For some reason I panicked and burst into tears. This was the most ridiculous thing I have ever done!

The poor girl had no idea what was going on and didn’t even connect it to anything she had said. I told her I could use some water and as she ran to get it I quickly cleared the history. Which I could have just done instead of acting like an idiot! She comes back and tries to comfort me assuming that Tom is not ‘treating me right’ again. I was still weepy, I have been all week, and this made me cry again as I tried to tell her that he was as good as gold to me and to stop thinking like that.

In the middle of all this Tom calls demanding to know if I am there. She didn’t like his tone and she starts in with “Well if she is here I would let you get her on the phone to bark at her like that!” I grabbed the phone and told him I was fine I had just come over for a visit. He wanted to know why I hadn’t been answering my cell! I had it in my purse but I had left the purse in the foyer and never heard it ring. He said to come home.

I am trying to get out the door with my dear niece telling me I don’t had to take orders from anyone if I don’t want to. And that he had no right to check up on me. She is so very wrong but I found it most upsetting. So I am crying on the way home not knowing how mad Tom is going to be. All of this was way too much emotion for a day where nothing had actually gone wrong.

When I came in I immediately got ‘the look’ from Tom. But it ended up that the look was all I got. I told him I had just lost track of time while I was visiting and that I didn’t even thought of not being able to hear my phone from the other room. It was the first time this week he had been home at a decent hour and he was just surprised to find the house empty. He said we could go out to eat but I was emotionally spent so we fixed eggs, and bacon and toast and it was delicious! It was a nice quiet evening. No spanking, no sex but plenty of snuggling and cuddling and talking. And it doesn’t get much better than that!

What a lovely couple.

I enjoy knowing what some of my friends out here look like. I understand that not everyone feels comfortable with this type of exposure but it helps me to picture who I am visiting with. So I was wondering if any of you would like a nice picture of Tom and me? Now don’t get excited for two reasons. One, we aren’t that good looking; and two, Tom letting me post a picture of the two of us is about as likely as me becoming a switch!

But I have posted a picture (now don’t scroll down until you do your reading). My niece showed me a picture she had come across on the internet one day. The picture is almost exactly like one taken of Tom and me a while back. It is my favorite picture of us and it sit on my night stand. No we are not young and beautiful, sorry. But in this picture the pose, the facial expressions, the age… it looks as though one picture was copied from the other! So I thought I would post this one to give you an image to think of when you drop by. Okay, if you are interested, scroll on down!

Of course this is Tyne Daly and Richard Crenna when they were in CBS’s Judging Amy; I believe this picture is from the TV Guide site. But don’t they seem like nice people?

Things are going fairly well here except for the fact that the internet has decided to only work occasionally and Tom has decided to work constantly. But after such a nice trip I am trying not to complain. But I hate spending so much time alone. Eventually it leads to me finding some way to get myself in trouble!

Flying the friendly skys

Oh boy, that was one of the best trips I have ever been on. We had a ball! I have run around with my friends, talked with them an enormous amount (they will never really understand our lifestyle), we have wined and dined, and played and made love and talked. The only problem is that I hate him working even more!

To begin on the plane, since Dave wanted his details, we had a pleasant conversation with his co-worker but after he departed the pilot told us to make ourselves at home. There was food in the galley and we were welcomed to take nap if we wished. He said he would give us a call when we needed to prepare for landing.

I wasn’t interested in a nap but other things came to mind. I approached Tom with my ideas and he said he did not feel that that would be appropriate. Never one to be dissuaded from what I want, I set out to charm the man and if I do say so myself, I charmed the pants off of him!! I do so well on my knees, and I don’t mean begging!

It was just so exciting making love on the plane. After we both got everything we wanted from the encounter we got ourselves put back together Tom decides I need a spanking to remind me who is supposed to be in charge. He was just sorry he hadn’t thought of it first! Was it Grace who once said that a spanking hurts more after an orgasm? Maybe it was that or maybe because it was my second spanking of the day but OWWW! I was still rubbing my bottom when the pilot called to say we needed to take our seats for the landing. Tom took evil delight in seeing that I was firmly buckled in!

That was only the beginning of a fantastic trip. I loved getting with the girls! And having Tom there was the icing on the cake. It would not have been nearly as much fun if I had gone without him!