I've gone too far.

Yes, I may have indeed gone too far this time. Three thousand miles too far! It is amazing what a little guts and a credit card can do for you. I sat around at the house stewing, pouting and finally deciding that I was free, white and over 65 and I could do what I wanted for a change! I didn’t tell him he couldn’t go back to work why can he tell me not to go to California? It didn’t even take all that much planning. I simply waited for Tom to leave for work, packed quickly, left him a note, called a cab and headed to the airport!

I knew Tom would probably be calling before long and sure enough as I waited for the flight to be called his call came and I led him to believe I was running errands. Then I turned the phone off and have been scared to turn it back on since! So here I sit in California wondering what’s going to happen now. Is he just going to let me stay and visit a while? He is going to fly out here and drag me home? Is he going to let me come home? Have I left my husband? Do I have a home to return to? Will I need a date for Valentine’s Day? Paul, are you available? Would you mind if I flew over to hide for a bit?


Oh come now, you didn’t believe any of that did you? I know some of you must have because I heard you gasp! Come now, I may act foolish at times but have you been reading my blog? I love my husband more than life. I would never do something like that to him. Well not for more than an afternoon anyway! No, not even for a Valentine dinner with Paul!

But I am in California and Tom is here with me! All this started Tuesday morning. I have been sleeping pretty late lately since there was no real reason to get up. So it was probably around 9:30 and I was snoozing away when all of a sudden the covers were ripped back and Tom was putting me over his knee and burning my bottom up! He scared me to death. He is fussing away “Is this how you spend day? I suppose I am going to have to make you a list of chores to accomplish each day or you will be sleeping or on that computer all day! This won’t do Cassie!” He had my full attention but one part of my mind was thinking “I can’t believe he came home just to see what time I got up!”

He finally let me up and was enjoying my ‘just spanked’ dance a little too much! What a way to wake up!! But he just laughed and hugged me and asked me how fast I could get packed we were headed to California! I asked him what in the world was going on.
He explained that he was very pleased, and somewhat surprised, that I had not fussed or pouted when he told me I couldn’t go. He said that he didn’t want me to feel neglected because he was working and the told the company that he would be taking a few days off to take me on a short trip. They not only didn’t seem to mind, they were sending a company plane to California so they flew us here!

The trip here was wonderful! The plane was one of the nicest I have ever seen, it was like a small apartment. We had company for the first part of the flight but during the last part we had the passenger cabin to ourselves. I would like to tell you that I got to join the mile high club on this trip but that would not be the truth. We actually joined several years ago, but we did renew our membership! I will tell you all about California soon.

Our weekend

I guess Tom is trying to make it up to me about not letting me go visit with the girls this week. Friday he came home at lunch time to surprise me so we had the whole afternoon with nothing to do except enjoy each other, we did. We went out for a nice dinner and home for a pleasant evening together. I just love talking to Tom. I enjoy everything with Tom, our sex life, our fun spanking, going out dancing, going to plays, our travels but I think most of all I just love snuggling up on the couch with him and talking. All these years and we haven’t run out of conversation yet.

We talked about the job a little; we talked about what all the girls would be doing together without me, he even asked me what was going on in blogland. I don’t talk about all of you too much but I told him Grace was feeling better, Theresa hoped her son chose a college close to home, Eva had a new puppy and that Todd, Suzy, Elis and Carye were all losing weight. He asked if we had given up talking about spanking and sex and I just laughed at him and told him yes there was some of that too!

It has been a wonderful weekend but during the week I feel so restless during the days. This last week I mostly stayed out of the house during the day so I wouldn’t feel so lonely and yes I had my cell phone with me every second! This next week is going to be cold and I don’t want to be out all the time so maybe I’ll sleep the week away.

I tried

I did my best. I was calm and reasonable; I had the pros and cons well thought out. I told him I understood his concerns but that I could easily navigate an airport. I would most definitely be on my best behavior. I promised that I would behave at all times as if he were standing right beside me. I explained that I really missed the girls. They were here for New Years but it was a fast trip and I was so busy with the party that we didn’t have time for just girl talk.

He listened; he sympathized about how busy I was over New Year. He said he knew that I wanted to spend time with the girls. But the answer was no. He doesn’t really want me traveling alone but I could have probably talked him into that but he just does not trust the five of us together if he is not – as he put it “Within hollering distance”. Even I can’t blame him we have pulled some pretty stupid stunts over the years. I have told you about some but not all by any means.

I am disappointed but I didn’t really expect that he was going to let me go. We will probably take a trip once he finished the project. But I am bored and I am lonely. It would have been nice to spend some time with the girls. Maybe they will come east before long. Perhaps I should spend my time writing up some of our more memorable escapades. Maybe then you would understand that Tom is not just being mean, he really does worry and I have given him reason on occasion. I’ll wait, the job can’t last forever.

I Need Some Ideas

Although Tom worked some Saturday we had a very nice weekend. I woke up Saturday morning to those three little words I love to hear “Turn over Cassie”. So my day started out with a wonderful good girl and some even better loving. We spent the morning together puttering around the house. It just felt wonderful! He went in to the office though around one and I was on my own again. But I have been inspired by Theresa a while back and I am working on cleaning out closets. I did find some long forgotten lingerie that I spent a good deal of Sunday afternoon modeling for Tom.

Now I have another project in the works. The girls are getting together out west at the end of the month. I want to join them for a few days but I know Tom won’t be able to leave and I don’t know if I can convince him to let me fly there by myself. I am afraid I won’t be able to talk him into this. Long ago, before we were married, I flew any where in the world I felt like going but since Tom I have only flown once without him and that was flying to him not away. Any suggestions??

Freedom!

Alright, Tom and I talked. He got home fairly early last Wednesday and I told him I wanted to go out to eat. We went to one of our favorite little places. It’s a good place to sit and talk. I asked about the job and he seems pleased with how things are starting off.

I finally got around to asking him about calling before I left the house during the day. He tried to head me off with “Now Cassie, I’m not telling you not to go out as you like, I just want to know when you do.” I said “Well first of all, that wasn’t your cell phone number; I assume it was a secretary. You expect me to call a strange secretary and tell her I am running to the grocery store or to get my hair fixed? Come on Tom!”

He said “Well I guess I didn’t mean for little trips like that.” I said, “Hold it right there buddy! Your note said to call when I left the house. If you had called and I hadn’t been there, you would have been on me like a duck on a June bug and you know it!” Tom laughed and said “You’re probably right!”

I told him “Tom you have to relax! I can take care of myself when you are working. I always have, I’ll be fine. Just check the calendar each morning, anything I know I will be doing, appointments, lunches, whatever I’ll write it down. I’ll stay in town unless I let you know and I’ll be home by 5 unless I tell you different.” He started to say something but I headed him off, “Yes, yes, I’ll keep my cell with me at all times and I will keep it on! But really Tom I can manage my daily running around without having to call your secretary!

Tom finally said “You are getting mighty bossy these days girl! But yes, I suppose that will work. Now about your cell – no excused don’t tell me you left it at home, don’t tell me you forgot to charge it and don’t turn it off. Would you like to hear what’s going to happen if I call and can’t get hold of you?”

Nope – not the least bit interested, thanks anyway! I don’t plan on finding out! Despite the way it may seem at times I don’t plan ways to aggravate Tom. Some things just come naturally!

Now let me think.

Elis tagged me the other day to come up with five thing that you do not know about me, I decided to give this one a try. I can think of many things, and many you probably don’t need to know. But here I go:

We once attended a party where we were introduced to Prince Charles. Now while I am sure he is a fine man I would be bragging more if I had been to a party and been introduced to Paul, Mel or Sky!

I once won $2,000 in one afternoon gambling. I decided not to tell Tom, I thought keeping a bit of mad money around was a good idea. I thought that until Tom found it and suddenly the money wasn’t the only thing that was mad!!

I did not graduate from college. I have always regretted this. I was very hesitant to start writing the blog because I was afraid of sounding uneducated among all you accomplished writers. Don’t tell me I can go back now – I’m not going to. That time has passed.

When Tom gets mad about something he calls me Cassie Jane, I’m not sure why it’s not my name but when he walks in and shouts “Cassie Jane” I know that I am probably not going to like the conversation or anything else that follows!

The day of my first husband’s funeral was interesting. It was one of the few times I ever remember my mother touching me. We had an argument and she slapped me. After that day I cut off contact with my parents. My father always though my first husband was a “Decent man who will take care of you”. My father always backed him even thought he knew that he beat me.

We'll work it out

Dave took the time to write a well thought out comment yesterday and I want to thank him and to reassure him and Tiggr and anyone else that is worried that I am not planning to go off just to annoy Tom - that is truly not my intention!

Honestly I'm not really mad. I know how much he loves me; I don't doubt it for a minute. And you know I adore him. But he can't put me under glass as he would some prize possessions.

I think I started all this when I slipped off a while back and wouldn’t answer my cell. He was very upset, mostly because of things that had happened long, long ago. But I have barely been allowed out of his sight since.

I don’t plan on jumping him over this. When I said I would get my way I just meant that I think when I talk with him I can convince him to relax and realize I am not planning something crazy. I just want to go about my business as usual.

Tom in my life! I fuss and fume here but I know when to fuss with him and when to back off and let him get used to being back at work and not home with me. I think he misses spending his days with me too. We will get it all worked out. But I really do miss him.

This show down is coming.

Last week was long and boring with Tom at work. He started Tuesday. I was going to get up early and have breakfast with him but he said he was going in early for a breakfast meeting and I could sleep late without worrying that he would come in and catch me!

He can sure be sweet sometimes. I found notes everywhere. One wrapped around my tooth brush said he loved me. They were all over most were sweet but some were annoying. One on the juice pitcher reminding me to take my medication, one on the computer telling me not to spend all day here – both of these bothered me a bit. But the kicker was the note above my keys saying to call some number if I went out anywhere. I beg your pardon! Can we all say this together –

CONTROLLING!

In all the time he has worked before he has never asked me to call if I was going out. It’s also not his cell so that means he wants me to call some strange secretary and tell her. I don’t think so! I side stepped the problem by staying home last week and got several project done. But I am not staying home forever. I have my cell he can get me anywhere I am but he doesn’t have to be told if I want to go to lunch or the drug store! In other words if he is so interested in monitoring my every move he shouldn’t have gone back to work. I’m behaving! I am not doing anything to make him mad. But I am also not giving up my personal freedom. Is this job over yet??

Happy Birthday CeeCi

CeeCi honey,
I wish you the happiest of birthdays! It was our dear Paul who directed me to your lovely garden. What a find! When I think of you and all we have learned from and about you the word class comes to mind. Your site is one I often read to Tom and I have him come to look at your pictures. He too has called you and your site classy. I haven’t commented as much as I should but I am a daily visitor!

For your birthday I wish you every desire in your heart. Your months of sobriety are the most wonderful gift you could give to yourself and those who love you. I have no doubt that Mojo is the answer to nearly everything else you need. And as I have told other children out here - enjoy yourself, but life doesn’t really get good until your sixties!!

What a weekend!

I have no idea what got into Tom this weekend but the man was in a happy playful mood. If he had been much happier I wouldn’t be able to sit at the computer!

We had a nice Friday, busy; we got lots of things done. In bed that night I was tired but we made love before spooning together for the night. Tom was planning to play golf Saturday morning. I didn’t plan on getting up before he left because I thought he was leaving around 8:00. I had my time off and he came into the bedroom just after 8:30 and starts in with “Cassie! Are you sick?” I came boiling out of the bed saying “Tom, it’s Saturday! You know I’m fine, you stay away from me with that thermometer!” He was laughing at me as I tried to slip my way into the bathroom.

I didn’t stand a chance. He said “If you aren’t sick you have no business wasting the morning in bed.” And I was over his knee getting my bottom warmed with his slipper! It hurt but I couldn’t help laughing as he peppered me with questions as well as pops. He wanted to know how I was planning to spend my day. I told him I had a hot date later so not to leave any bruises! My ‘being a smart ass’ timing has never been good! Owww! After that volley was over I told him I was meeting my nieces for lunch.

He headed off for golf with me all spanked and no time for love making!! But I had a nice lunch. It was a beautiful day here Saturday, a bit over 70 so when I got home I decided to tackle my flower beds and get out all of last summer’s growth. I usually do this much earlier but then I broke my hand and it got put off. As I said it was a warm but it was a bit muddy so I put on an old tee shirt and pair of overalls that I like for working outside. I won’t wear them when Tom is around because he makes such fun of me. I couldn’t find my gloves but I put on my garden boot and out I went. Okay I did not look my most elegant but I was doing yard work!

I had been working quite a while when I suddenly heard laughter from the deck. I was on my hands and knees, mud up to my elbows and streaked all over my face where I sweated and Tom laughing his fool head off at me. He came out in the yard saying “Good grief Cassie, you look like a rag pickers child!” But when he saw my hands he was less than amused. “What are you doing out here with out your gloves. You know better” Tom loves my hands and they did look pretty rough at the moment. I knew what was coming next so I took off for the house. It has been quite a while since a man chased me in my yard!

He cheats so he caught me pretty quickly. I expected to be taken in and paddle – but no ! He was headed to the bench around one of our trees! Now we are fairly secluded but we do have neighbors! I kept saying “No, Tom, take me inside!” but he said those dirty overalls aren’t going in his house! And before I could stop him that devil had my overall off and I was over his knee – outside! I wanted to yell at him but I felt the noise he was making was more than enough for the outside sitting with out me adding to it.

When he got done I made a grab at the overalls but he kept laughing and saying no. I may have been wild at one time but now I do not expect to be sprinting across my lawn dressed in only a tee shirt, panties and socks! The man has lost his mind! But honestly it was so much fun! After a shower (Tom helped saying I would never get all that dirt off myself) we took a long nap, well after a bit of fun. It was after 8:30 when we woke up and Tom was starving. His first question was what are you fixing me for dinner? I said “You have to be out of your mind!” (I rarely cook anyway) “You have spanked me twice today for absolutely nothing and if you think I am making you dinner you are out of your mind! I’m not doing it!”

I made us grilled cheese sandwiches and tomato soup. I drank mine from a mug, easier when you are standing at the counter after the third spanking of the day!! And he was in a good mood!! Okay, I did not feel ignored! But as I asked Sky has he forgetting he is married to a little old lady? My goodness!

It was the next day I wanted to strangle him! I was sore! As we took our seats at church I was tender and trying to find a comfortable way of sitting. As I turned and twisted a bit, Tom leaned over with a sincere look of husbandly concern on his face said quietly (but loud enough for several to hear) “Honey, are your hips bothering you again? Did you take your medicine?” If looks could have killed he would have been dead on the spot! But as others offered sympathy I was getting more and more tickled. I have no idea what the preacher said that morning I kept trying to suppress my laughter but giggles kept escaping and I would try to cover them with a cough as Tom was giving me disapproving frowns.

After church Tom asked me what I wanted to do that afternoon. My choice - something that did not involve spanking!! It was a very rainy day! We spent it in bed watching two of my favorite movies. Okay Tom might have slept through parts but he was nice enough to not snore. We watched Same Time Next Year and then Fried Green Tomatoes. A wonderful afternoon!

Tom is starting to go to the office this week. If he has this much energy to burn he does need to have some place to burn it besides my backside! I will miss him but he did give me one find send off! He is the best man in the world. I know that is true, but so help me, it he tries to get my pants off outside again he is going to be walking funny!

Up Periscope

Theresa, in teasing Elis about her birthday, posted a card reminding her that at 50 everyone is supposed to have a colonoscopy. I remember when the doctor first suggested this years ago and how Tom and I disagreed as to the necessity of this test. Guess who won!

I don’t dislike doctors. I have my yearly physical, I do mammograms, and most of what else they suggest but when he first suggested a colonoscopy, or as I call it ‘up periscope’ – well there are just some things that one person ought not do to another. At least unless there is an expensive dinner involved!

When I went to my physical several years ago the doctor did suggest this test because of family history. I thanked him for the information and decided to ignore it. Unfortunately, I left the pamphlet on the kitchen counter when I came home and nosy Tom picked it up. He asked me if the doctor wanted me to have this test. I tried to be vague but it didn’t work. He insisted that I call the next day and sit up an appointment.
I forgot, he didn’t. He called at lunch to see if I had made the appointment and when I said no he said that he would make it for me.`

I wasn’t convinced that this test was such a good idea. Several days before the appointment Tom reminded me of it and I said “Oh didn’t I tell you, the doctor’s office said I had to reschedule.” Now that was not a lie – that is exactly what they said when I called to cancel the appointment. I was planning to do it eventually; I just needed to get mentally prepared.

He asked me if I had rescheduled and I said yes. He asked me if I was sure and again I told him yes! And I really should have written down the date that I had rescheduled it to but I forgot. I also managed to erase the phone message from the office to remind me. Truly my memory is terrible at times!

My doctor and Tom meet at the golf course occasionally and when they did the doctor asked Tom if I was planning to take that test that I kept missing. Theresa is that legal? When he got home from golf he called to me as he came in. I could tell from his tone that he was not happy with me. As I came into the living room he started “Cassie, I’m going to wear you out!” I wasn’t sure what he was mad about, there were usually several things going on in my life back then that it could have been!

He said “First thing you are going to call and reschedule that appointment.” Oh, shoot – it was that! He had me put the phone on speaker and stood right there listening as I tried to reschedule. The receptionist was saying “Now ma’am you canceled the first appointment and you didn’t show up when we rescheduled it. Do you think you will be able to make it this time?” Seeing the look on Tom’s face I was able to assure her that I would be there!

When I hung up Tom said, “You canceled the first appointment? You said the doctor’s office said you had to reschedule!” “They did say that,” I told him, then added quietly “after I canceled.” Tom didn’t like any of this and told me to wait on him in the bedroom. When finally came up he said “You know two things that I will not put up with, neglecting your health and lying to me. What do you think I should do?” I told him that I thought I needed a stern warning and hot sex to help me remember the afternoon. Tom told me that I wouldn’t have any problem remembering the afternoon, unfortunately, he was correct even though he did not take my suggestion!

He used both the school paddle and the hair brush and he burnt me up! Who knew getting mentally prepared started from the bottom up? He also made me take my pants down myself before he put me over his lap. That is always the worse for me. This man does not like me to be less than honest with him, nor does he want me skipping doctor visits. I don’t think I have skipped a doctor’s visit since that day! But he is just too picky about what he calls lying! Omitting is not lying, withholding is not lying, and forgetting to tell something is not lying! He just interprets the word too strictly! I can say in all honesty to all of you that I am always the perfect lady, in manner, in word and in deportment. See! Exaggerating isn’t lying either, it’s just being creative!

I took the stupid test and it wasn’t horrible although the preparation is not my favorite way to spend an evening. But for the test I was asleep and when all was said and done I did get an expensive dinner out of it!

I'm proud of Tom!

Not long after the excitement of the party died down I began to get depressed about Tom’s job again. Tom doesn’t allow much pouting in his presents and I could tell he was losing patients with me. He was talking to me about something – he asked me something and I didn’t answer. I had my mind wrapped up in being hurt but when I didn’t answer he snapped at me. He doesn’t snap at me often but it always hurts my feelings whether it is deserved or not. He said “Cassie, talk to me!” and I yelled “Go talk to your work buddies and leave me alone!”

It wasn’t a minute until I was under his arm receiving a lesson on the evils of shouting at ones husband. He was not in a playful mood and the kitchen provides far too many implements. Next time I shout at him I’ll do it in the living room – more pillows!

It didn’t last long but it hurt!! I was dancing and rubbing for sure! He put out his hand and said "Come with me". I had had plenty of spanking for the morning, thank you. But I took his hand and he led me to his study. Now I do not go into his study that is his room alone. I’m not ‘forbidden’ it’s just that it’s all his stuff and he is super organized so I just stay out.

He took me in to show me the project he was taking on. He explained what it is supposed to do and the number of people it will help once it is completed. His job will be to get things started. He knows the people needed and how to get them. He will have a free hand to hire whomever he needs – the best. They will come for Tom.

Once he sets things up, puts the team together so to speak other will be handling the project with Tom acting as a trouble shooter. He says his active involvement will not be more that 2 to 3 months. He told me he agreed to take the job because it needed doing, and he knew he could get it done in a timely fashion and within the budget.

He went on to tell me that he was not coming home to a pouting, sullen wife. He said he expected a wife who was happy to see him at the end of the day and one that was proud of what he was doing. He hugged me and squeezed my sore bottom and asked me if I understood. I do – it is an excellent project and I am proud of him I always have been. I always will be and I’ll make sure he always knows it!

Wonderful evening

I hope everyone enjoyed their New Years Eve! Our party was so much fun I indulged it too much of everything – too much to eat, too much to drink, too much dancing, just too much partying in general, but I loved every minute of it. Tom looked so dashing and handsome! I felt like the luckiest women in the world.

We have had such fun during the holiday season. I have even managed to stay out of any major trouble. Tom is probably getting bored with me; I may need to spice things up a bit. LOL! He doesn’t start the job until the middle of January. I wonder if I could be good enough or perhaps bad enough to talk him out of it. Oh I won’t, but a girl can dream can’t she?